Just finished a distance phone call with a friend of mine in Singapore. We were discussing the worth of L.O.V.E . How much we need to contribute to that in order to comprise its worth?

When we were much younger, L.O.V.E was just a bond between 2 loving birds. So when the reality hits us, unbelievable factors are pieces to finish off the jigsaw puzzle. At the later part of the conversation, she asked me if I’ve any regrets in that Big Four Letter Powerful Word. You know, sometimes people are just plain foolish or should I say, desperate, when dealing with their L.O.V.E issues. When a relationship gets rather quiet, a participant in that relationship would light up their so called, DULL relationship with some rather idiotic and meaningless sparks. That drains down most of the relationship.

How much is enough for someone to say that he/she is ready to L.O.V.E or to be L.O.V.E.d? I’m not talking about puppy love or even short term relationship; L.O.V.E that promises a walk together down the aisle . Let’s face the fact; it’s totally pointless to walk into a relationship with someone you aren’t ready to commit. I’ve been through so many relationship and walked out with little expectations. To a certain extent, I believe that I am so not the right person to even discuss about L.O.V.E. Friendships ended because of that and no doubt that some ugly foot prints were left on my way out from every relationship that I had involved in.

Though I do regret making horrible decisions most of the time, reminders are always up asking me not to look back. Walk forward and live your life with those decisions made because there is zero possibility to rewind the time machine.

Another friend of mine asked if I’m attached to someone at the moment; because of my current status in my Friendster profile is IN A RELATIONSHIP. Yeah, I am in a relationship, but, not with any ordinary guy.

It’s God.

=)

Happy Holidays!

当初就不应该。

We're gonna be just fine. But I think this incident has taught you something valuable. Learn it and don't make the same mistake again because you're just handling relationship issues at your own risk.

I'm not sure if things are meant to be this way and I'm dead serious that I'm losing my grip on those issues.

2 xmas parties and a cocktail party on the way =)
oh, I'm soooooo in love with Xmas. Last sunday's gift giving service was sooo awesome. I haven’t had such a meaningful pre-xmas celebration before.

Let’s adore Him.

my future is in His hands and greater achievements are just ahead of me.
I know that.

Why the struggle?

Have you ever heard someone suggest that if you just trust Jesus, He'll solve all your problems and you'll float through life with riches and peace?

If that were the way God planned it for the people who serve Him, then what was Paul's problem? After his conversion, he was as godly as they come, yet he had problems galore. He was one of the greatest missionaries of all time - and what did he get for his trouble? Beaten up. Arrested. Nearly drowned. Run out of town.

Look at Joseph, Abraham, Job, Jeremiah, Peter - godly men one and all. Yet they all faced dangers and trouble none of us would ever desire.

So, why the struggle? Why is it that tragedy strikes Christians with the same blunt force that it strikes the most antagonistic atheists? Why are we not exempt from natural disaster, serious illness, interpersonal squabbles, and mistreatment by others?

Somehow, in God's way of making things work out, our troubles can advance His kingdom and purposes (Romans 8:28; Philippians 1:12). Our task is to glorify God, no matter what the circumstances. If we do, our struggle can direct others to the Saviour as we make our way toward out ultimate goal of rest and reward in heaven.

He changes your bloodline at the point of your conversion.
So, just jump in the water of faith because revelation is just ahead.

God allows trials in our lives not to impair us but to improve us.

I've always thought that keeping the MOUTH shut at the appropriate time, is the best when one wants to salvage a relationship. Be it a boy girl relationship or friendship. Because it allows time to cool things off.

and no, I'm not avoiding you.

The outward. The hidden.

The apostle Paul said that we are to "cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit" - (2 Cor. 7:1) . Even though it may seem people around us that we are living a clean, moral life, in our spirit we may be harboring an attitude that displeases the Lord. Because sins of the spirit are unseen, hidden in the heart, we tend to ignore them until they lead to some outward behaviour that reveals their presence.

King David's life illustrates these two aspects of sin. His lust for Bathsheba led to adultery and murder (2 Sam. 11-12; Ps. 32:5), and brought great pain to his own life and reproach to the nation of Israel. Then, late in his life, he succumbed to Satan's prompting to take a census (1 Chron. 21:1-6). This seemingly innocent act displeased God because David was taking pride in his military might. He apparently made a subtle shift from complete reliance on God, who had often miraculously delivered him, to trusting in his own power and strength.

On the outside, it may appear to others that we are winning the battle against sin. But we must stay alert to the sins of the spirit, especially pride. They can cause us to stumble and fall, even at the end of life's journey.

Pride and lust are hidden stones over which many people stumble.

喝着茶， 谈心事。

你要坚持。
因为在你奋斗的时候，我会在你身后默默的支持你。
当然也不会忘了为你祈祷。

一切都会很快过去。

会没事的。


“愛你不需要原因　只要有一顆真心　分隔兩地也可以傳給你
　愛你不會有距離　只要你在我心裡　隨時隨地我也可以感覺得到你”

徐若瑄 - “決定愛你”

I know i've not been working hard enough.

emoash now. please don't talk about it, because i'm gonna so ignore that topic.

never gonna give up though.

Jamie Cullum - I'm Glad There Is You

said i many times, love is illusion,
a feeling result of confusion
with knowing smile and blasé sigh,
a cymical so and so, am i

i feel so sure, so positive,
so utterly unchangeably certain
though i never was aware of loving you
'til i suddenly realised there was love in you and oh...

chorus:
in this world of ordinary people...
extraordinary people,
i'm glad there is you

in this world of overrated pleasures
and underrated treasures,
i'm glad there is you.

i live to love,
i love to live with you beside me
this role, so new
i'll muddle through with you
if you'll guide me through.

in this world where many play at love
and hardly any stay in love,
i'm glad there is you

more than ever, i'm glad there is you

said i many times, love is illusion...

flashback

My blanket was over me. No, I wasn't sleeping, becos I couldn't. It was just a whole night of my carefree childhood flashback. The time we spent together at the park? Our watermelon juice with rojak after the swing? The total number of half-boiled eggs we had together? My late night demanding for noodles? Your forever oily chicken soup?

you know, i could go on forever.

And I really miss you. Badly.

Holidays

Screwed up my last paper but everything's over becos I was more keen to know what I'm gonna do over the holidays when I was struggling with the $#%% paper. And yes, I'm having an incredible time with all my UL mates. More to come! I'm making sure that this summer's gonna be the best. With Planet Shakers Conference coming up this Jan'07 and numerous day trips with friends. By the way, I'm ushering for this big event!!! Of course, my summer course which I'll be spending precious time at the school lecture hall having 5 hrs seminar each week. WAHAHA. No, I'm not really excited abt the summer course though, becos I've got to travel back to Sin (stacey's wedding. and having an online test on the same week) , then back to Mel. Another trip back to Sin for CNY and back again to Mel. SIA is soooo gonna fall in love with me...

UL girls gathering on last wednesday, PS Conference Volunteering Night on last thursday and Urban Life on last friday. Anyway, that was actually our very last UL for 2006. We went to Chapel st for supper at Chapelli; baileys cakes, cookies & cream cheesecake, fettuccini carbonara, risotto chicken and ...... the list goes on. Drove from Chapel st to Brunswick and to Flamington, then back to Box Hill. Was really tired cos I was driving for a week straight. But it is such a blessing to serve the people of God.

After 6pm church service on sunday, we went to Kimchi grandma for Joshua's birthday celebration. 24 of us gathered around and ended the dinner with ed's handmade cheesecake, Joshua's speech and birthday songs. We were standing just outside the restaurant for 20 mins making endless conversations after the dinner. The guys decided to go for some ice-cream at Mc's before heading back home.

everyone was bloated.

strawberry farm at mornington is coming up!! yay!


" Thank You, God, that You're our Father,
Shepherd, Guardian, Guide, and Stay;
How we praise You for the blessings
You bestow on us each day! "

++ Belonging to God brings boundless blessing++

have a good week.

男人在生气时，会说出他的真心话。

*****惊讶*****

but that was sweet =D

tomorrow is my last paper for this semester.
dinner at sofia on friday night, sylvia's 21st birthday celebration this saturday and church on sunday!

friends out there, all the best for exams! 加油！

4 more hours before my first paper commences.

argh! I didn't get to sleep at all! COULDN'T SLEEP!!!!!!

still need to drive down to the city after the paper, another red bull?
meeting bee for coffee after my revision. dinner with Ju? and UL at 7.30pm.

wish me luck....

=P

1 missed call at 12.30pm

1 missed call at 12.34pm

1 missed call at 1.32pm


Called back at 1.33pm

傻瓜问为何现在才打给他。

今天是他的first paper。

两点半的paper，傻瓜说他既然睡到十一点半才起床。说还有一个chapter还没读完。


hehehe

加油哦！因为是你的SHOWTIME了！

明天轮到我了！！

It's so true.

I really agree that when one is being too nice, others seem to be taking that for granted. I may be too silly but at least I know that's my nature. Crash it if you want. I can only say that I've already lost my ability to judge the truth.

Why do some believe that turning up sunday church services and participating in some Godly-conversations would position themselves as good Christians? No, I'm not pointing my index finger at anyone. But yeah..why? Because I believe that's more to be called as good Christian and "Actions speak louder than Words".

And now that they're only "squeezing out the juices" instead of serving everyone an answer. You guys only give me more headaches. Thanks to my examination, for I know you guys will avoid calling me. Good or bad, you guys decide.

"Wrestle with God until we see the breakthrough." I know He spoke to me at that very moment. I know =)

cannot la!

Being MIA is totally unacceptable! HAHAHA.

You know, currently there are only 4 things that can really hold up my happy-go-la-la mood are sunday church services, ULs, bible readings and his phone calls.

Since when we talked this much? Since when I wanna hear your voice this much? and since when... we cannot live without talking for even a day? Our conversations were so emo emo for a moment and so rojak (LOL) at the next. Thanks for cheering me up and giving me your utmost assurance. of course, not forgetting the song yongqi.

*愛真的需要勇氣　來面對流言蜚語
　只要你一個眼神肯定　我的愛就有意義
　我們都需要勇氣　去相信會在一起
　人潮擁擠我能感覺你
　放在我手心裡　你的真心*


I'm still waiting for the final phone call about when to return back home. becos.. yes! My sister is getting married! I'm still gonna spend my summer here with 1 or 2 trips back. ARGH! Can I just say YES to stacey's wedding and NO to CNY? WAHAHAHA!

Worthy is God of our worship,
Worthy is He of our praise,
Magnify Him with thanksgiving,
Gladly our voices we raise.

I and MIA

I wouldn't want to turn back time. yeah. no way.

I've made mistakes and yeah.. i learnt from the lessons and i am so never gonna go back to that again.

cycles and cycles, they won't put it to an end unless you insist.

Everything seems so screwed up lately. I've been praying a lot. Miracles and more miracles please? I'm so hungry for God's words. I can't wait for sunday!!!!

so many conversations being made. and yet, my mind is still not on its own. what happened? The answers are just right in front of me but I chose to ignore. ARGH! I need to go MIA for a while. Time is running out and I find it hard to concentrate. MIA MIA MIA, GO GO GO!

till _________

ta!

Planet Uni Camp

Remember my awesome planet uni camp? HAHAHA. Had lots of fun with my incredible brothers and sisters in Christ. Really thank God for all the breakthroughs we had.

And Oh! This is me... HAHAHA.


Anyway, here's the video!Enjoy!




P.S Check out Planetuni webby for pics!

猫咪。

猫咪:

你为何像一只狗，站在我的门外守护着呢？

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他告诉我,他会买Krispy Kremes给我..... 真的吗?为何我们几乎每晚都会通电话呢?? 我真的被 动摇了吗? 不可以!!! 太快了啦!!!

爱与不爱，已经不重要了。

我不要分心。Because I can't afford to.
祈祷有一天我和你都会看到真相.
Though it was really awkward to meet you for the first time since after you expressed your feelings to me. But one thing never changes.... we're still as crappy as before.
我学到了一个道理: 在感情上, 不要有渴望. 因为' 渴望 ' 会导致有' 贪 ' 的心态.
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来一点童真吧.. 哈哈!


"当我们同在一起,在一起,在一起.
当我们同在一起, 真快乐无比.
你对我笑嘻嘻,我对你笑哈哈.
当我们同在一起, 真快乐无比"

压力啊! 2 more weeks...

24小时没睡过.....我是SUPERWOMAN! HURRAY!

Everything that you've said last night seems so surreal. And I'm pretty serious that has never crossed my mind. To be honest, I really do admire you A LOT. I'm still in the state of accepting this shocking news... Like you said, we need to put Him as our top priority in life. So, lets see how things are meant to be for us =)

Exams in 2 weeks time. Summer is gonna be fun! With my first ever planet shakers conference and _____ ( shall talk about it nearer to the end of the month)!

P.S Enjoy the presence of God!

Philippians 3:12-15

"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.

Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you."


Many thanks to Juni and TJ for sharing at tonight's UL. It was awesome and God was really speaking to everyone. everything's fine and next week it's the UL retreat to Mornington! But for some reasons, i 'll give that a miss. Church on sunday! Can't wait! =)

good night~

chances of me moving over to temple court is 50:50. fell in love with the apartment after my stay overs at Sylvia's. busy with exam preparation, UL, church friends, test and my very last case study of this semester. Will be taking up financial planning next year, they say it engages with good prospects. *wink* temp of the day was 30 degrees, oh yes.. summer is just around the corner!

Justin was suggesting a holiday tour around australia over the summer, anyone? hehe.

最漆黑的時刻　你握著我的手
淚光閃爍　看希望一點點沉沒

追逐夢時搖晃　你扛我在肩上
尋見曙光　我們卻開始迷惘

＊世界如此沉默　卻像在說謊
　吵雜霓虹　我無力辨認對錯
　未來或許很難　遇不上誘惑
　如果你真愛我
　就算我選擇錯　放了我＊

最燦爛的季節　你在我心中
城市迷宮　我想念直接的感動

追逐夢時搖晃　隨著模糊方向
努力生活　我努力試著執著

＊世界如此沉默　卻像在說謊
　吵雜霓虹　我無力辨認對錯
　未來或許很難　遇不上誘惑
　如果你真愛我
　就算我選擇錯　放了我＊

祝福我　給我最後擁抱和寬容
天空　失去了你不再遼闊

世界如此沉默　卻像在說謊
吵雜霓虹　我無力辨認對錯
愛情或許很難　堅守著承諾
如果你真愛我
就算我選擇錯　放了我

如果你真愛我
如果我陷入危險　忘了我

Secret to beautiful skin?

you should've seen the look on my face when i read this from Mr Brown's blog!



This Zoe Tay ad in a storefront was spotted at Adrants.com.

It is for Singapore-based skin care pill Imedeen, and the copy for Zoe says:

"My secret to beautiful skin? I swallow."

-_-"

My cousin, Juliet.

This beautiful girl is Juliet. Her dad is an american and mum is a chinese! How cool is that?! And isn't she adorable?
*love love love*

再一次擁有

歌手：龔詩嘉 | 作曲：劉文仁

填詞：Devin Wu | 編曲：吳慶隆

我想念去年的冬天
下著雪的那一夜
你給的溫柔　緊握的雙手
溫暖整個寒冬

＊失去了曾經的擁有
　在你離開以後
　帶走了笑容　只留下寂寞
　忘了幸福是什麼

　沒有你的夜特別的漆黑
　只能閉上雙眼去感覺
　沒有我的夜　誰在你身邊
　代替了那個從前＊

REPEAT＊

能不能再聽一次你說愛我
回到還在你懷裡的時候
能不能讓我　再一次擁有
曾屬於我的溫柔

能不能讓我　再一次擁有
曾屬於我的溫柔

The Mayonnaise Jar & the 2 cups of Coffee

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes." The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things, e.g. your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favourite passions - and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house & our car.

The sand is everything else - the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness." Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first - the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend." - Author unknown

Reveal, Reverse and Restore.

Just hold on to that trust and accept the test given by Him.
And when you look back in years time, it's all worth it.


Ps Danny Gugliemucci

黑白配 by 范瑋琪

太陽曬得我　眼睛睜不開
你的好脾氣　讓我心情壞不起來
下雨下得我　眼神發呆　你的道歉
聽著聽著我都快要笑出來

＊誰說不能　黑白配
　世界上沒有什麼事　能夠如此的絕對
　曾經有人這樣唱過
　白天它不懂夜的黑　你卻懂得我的美＊

有時候我會　感覺非常累
有時候也會　不自覺把你拖累
你有時會說　我們不配　只要能依偎
真的真的我什麼都無所謂

REPEAT＊

鋼琴也是黑白鍵
一樣能彈出我對你　只有滿滿的感謝
也許黑永遠不明白
在這個彩色的世界　有你我才會存在

Cotton Candy Day at school. Swweet. 

YES! YES! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4 Credits!!!!!!!!!!!


my prayer answered. Thank God.

au revoir, Singapore

My flying experience back to melbourne was bad.
first, counter staff couldnt issue any ticket to me becos they said I've not transferred my student visa. And the stupid fact is, immigration sent me an email informing me that they've updated their system with my new passport number.

i was at terminal 1 and QF only allows max 25kg luggage! I promise to stick to SIA..
waited for 20mins and I finally got my ticket...bloody hell. waste of time.

stacey told me QF's entertainment is a hell lot better than SIA's... bull shit! okie, except for the movie, V for Vendetta.

the most ludicrous thing is, when I touched down at Mel airport, i was stopped by a custom officer. (counter staff at changi airport requested me to produce both passports at Mel)
and so.. why? not becos I do not have a valid visa but becos they claimed that both passports belong to 2 diff person! WAHAHAHHAAA. The previous passport is only freaking 2 yr old!!!!! They held me back and took my passports to a special custom office. A lady approached me with my passports on hand 10 mins later.... "excuse me, may i take a look at one of your ears?"

-_-""

she said it's becos I've lost some weight and my hair is longer..................................................!$%$%!!!
I wasn't expecting the 2 ugly words,"PLASTIC SURGERY"
Thank God :)

and with little expectation, yes... I'm right! Pan wasnt there to pick me up! bloody bloody! ARGH!!!! I took a cab back to white house with a total cost of AU$71. I don't have much cash with me as my dad wasnt around when i left singapore. damn it! damn it!

Max-cy was there when I reached.heeee.
cleaned up my room from 6am till 10.30am. I was exhausted and slept for the next 7 hrs.

Met Jo for lunch and Bee for a drink at the city.

I bought a Tommy Hilfiger sweater for my dad. Cost? $78/- YESH! BLOODY CHEAP. Myers' on sale!

I'm a happy girl now... hehe

In-Room HOT POT!

YESH!!! We had in-room hot pot last night. why in-room? hahaa, because it was held in my ROOM! HAHAA. We bought fish soup base and i took out my precious 鱼片(不舍得吃）!!! YUMMY!!! Anyway, the hot pot was a drive to continue our revision. Mum's at shanghai. at least I've my hot pot here, okie... I won't grumble.
happy 'revising'~ 

Sleepless Night

I can't sleep last night. Maybe it was because of the stress level that I'm facing? Maybe I'm too happy that I'm heading back soon? or Maybe because it will be the 9th when I'm awake? U know, i don't wish to leave any of my ugly foot prints in your life. Maybe.. maybe becos I know I ain't worth it? Maybe becos I do know you've every right to hate me.

Whatever it is, I was and am praying for you. Take good care of yourself.

4 more days.
THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!
why? assignments, tests & examination?
why play us this way?

but i'll party when others are still struggling. Nice? HHAHAA *evil smiles*

I camp for 5 days x 14 hours in that bloody cold library (is no fun at all). The 'on- time' stomach growling and rumbling is kinda irritating for quiet readers. and so... I stopped going library already.
Nevertheless, my revision still continues.

life is BORING when it has to deal with examination (no, don't tell me your view on this. Thank you)


Wheee! 10 more days before makan treats and parties starts.

ohhh... I was missed by Joel?!

Blog entry posted from Joel :

Monday, June 05, 2006 @ 1:38 AM

Ashley. Where in shit's name have you disappeared to?? I am suddenly overwhelmed by a sense of emptiness & loss. I miss your lousy english & bad pronunciation. When are you coming back??! Call me. I need to talk.

You little piece of shite, dont disappear on me.

- emo kid joe

yes, I admit that my english is lousy la. I just don't have the thing for language. Spare me for that :P
but well... brighten up my hectic exam preparation period though. Wheee!

Planet Shakers City Church

Decided. Yes, that's final. = )

Jesus, thanks for setting me free. I love you.

"Jesus Take The Wheel"

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

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Carrie Underwood (One of my favourite American Idol)

好想姐姐。。。 真的很想她。。。

Congratulations on your posting. God Bless You.

A 'heart' for an exchange for a hug : )

it's here again. i'm craving for newton's sambal food. sleepless nights, late night revision, day time sleeping in.
it's gonna end soon or later. church was fun yesterday. perhaps it's the solid connection with Father or the marvellous crowd at the hall.
And yes, it's the revision week, follow by the study break and it's time for exams. I've been online at Msn for the sake of letting others know that I'm still alive. So, please don't try your luck to message me though there were some lucky ones.

so neighbour said Drivens' dead. Screwtape Letters' out. Looking forward for some really great songs.

questions. but no answer.
time adjusting. but no intention given.

Sometime, I wish I could just run away from you. Though I know it can't be possible.

Now, I do need my guy to ease away the pain or whatever bull shit that is heading towards my life. Still, things happen for a reason. It's all about adapting to it and live with the different circumstances in life! adapt to it, Ashley!

tell me there's more than just sambal sotong waiting for me! haha.

White Night. Passion.

So the lazy me, decided to make a collage for some of the pics taken at White Night party. It feels more like a girl party! Planet Uni photographers have taken some pics of us with the monkey-ly stella. hmmm, will it be uploaded online? HAHA. 'Pick it Up' is gonna launch this coming sunday! Oh, Passion was the winner at White Night with 10 Hoyts' movie tickets won! Which means, we're gonna meet up for movie catching and food hunting! can't wait!

Yes, He's definitely the Man of the year.

Man of the year goes to MR LEE MINGWEI.

first male pregnancy.

bravo! Bringing a child to the world.. isn't it beautiful? Even he agrees with that!

being a student, i think my worries for simply everything has gone beyond hope.
i like to worry a lot.
and ever since the little disagreement arise, I'm so keen to get out of here.
been looking for apartments. and i guess i've given too much attention on it.
exams in 3 weeks time... moving out now sounds insane. but i'm not sure why, I just wanna find a place asap, move in when i return back to Melbourne.
looking out for pleasant apartment is not like buying cabbage in the market. I know that. but I can't wait to move out too.

i've given too much pressure to people on that.
i'm sorry.
becos i've not intention to stress anyone.

i'm having mood swings lately.
not that I'm unhappy about not getting an apartment yet or etc, I'm just unhappy with myself.
why am I feeling this way? I'm starting to question my personality.
yeah, maybe some of you think that I should've done that earlier.

saying that I hate myself is idiotic.
but i can't do anything but to blame myself for being too eager to move out.

this may be a signal from God that I should just keep the way things are.

Was listening to Driven. Bring back the memories of those rush hours lunch,dinner,supper,cafe,movies. Felt so much like home. Thanks to your songs :)
Neighbour, I really miss you so. aussie land this year lah!

steamboat this friday - hurray!
clarins special offer & planet shakers white party this saturday - hurray!!! hurray!!!

i'm like a polar bear. winter makes me sleeps like one. man! it shouldnt be happening.
my last assignment wasn't as smooth as it should be. groupmates' work pushing? I did the 3rd recovery since feb? screw you toshiba. i have been a cry baby these while... reason? the huge ignorance from my groupmates? "i've other assignments to do... can you do for me?" and yeah lah, they know I don't want to screw it too. of course they're not that ridiculous that there's a need to go fwd to the lecturer.

judgement everywhere! I hate it! it upsets me okie? my files have no freaking virus okie?!
monday was a bad bad day.
the songs playing over at radio stations here are freaking dreadful! missing 98.7 fm for long....
i've been watching korea dramas online at youtube. and the bloody internet usage has gone up to 80% of it. which means we left with 20% till the end of the month.
tell me....will that ever happen in singapore? sob.... my unlimited usage with maxonline....
damn it. so yucky

yeah, the grumpy me.

The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just try your best, try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle, it'll up the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on.
Just do your best, do everything you can.
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything will be just fine, everything will be alright.
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It was a random song I came across prior to my first O paper.
(best of luck for my battle ahead)

I am gonna prove it right.

Baptism

And so... the question is right there,waiting for me to answer. Baptism is also a celebration for a new life. Pastor Xiaoli urged me to get baptize. Don't ask me why but I told her I need time to think about it. Les said I need to get ready before doing it. Is not a bad thing to get baptize of course..but deep down I know I can't do it right now.

When 'ready' is ready?

Katie Melua - 'The Closest Thing To Crazy'

beautiful

Is Mother's Day this sunday. The writing of the card was so depressing... haha. Becos I was weeping while writing. Don't ask me why.


I love you, mother :)

total equity, acid/quick ratios, ROE,ROA,Asset turnover etc etc....
whole night of ratio-ing.... and i've got to spend my entire day at sch....lecture,group discussion,tutorial,lecture and assignment discussion..
4 1/2 weeks more!!!!


yawn.... time to sleep?!

All my papers squeezing together in a week. 12th - 16th. time is running out.

wondering if I'll be as hardworking as what I was during my Os. gosh! I miss my life in secondary school.
I miss how those triple-s screwed us, how many tuna bread I had for lunch just to rush for another group revision. how I fainted at school becos I over-worked. How I finished 3 ten years series in a month. How wild was class 501 though we were really stressed out. How well we conducted our PE classes(fun and fun and FUN!) I miss how we celebrated everyone's bday in class(candles and cakes) Miss the hugs and encouragement from teachers and classmates. Of course, the tears we shed when we graduated from East View. I miss class 501 of year 2002.

The Lion Sleeps Tonight.

Just a funny clip. Enjoy and good night to all!

"One" by U2 & Mary J. Blige

I've realised there's temptation everywhere. No doubt that someone do need company, no one even adores the word 'lonely'! And even I've applied the theories into my real life, i can never live a day without guilt. Not the guilt after committing something really unacceptable. I really wonder how long can i hold on and control my drawing towards the temptation.

i enjoy intimacy but one can never have the joy of it unless you're ready for committment. I've considered getting intimated with my guy friend. but i've been feeling guilty for that. I mean, who am I to deserve him physically when I'm not ready for committment?

they say I'm extremely HOLY all these while. YES, I agree.
like I always go "I'll pray for you", "God will be there to help you overcome the obstacles" blah blah. and of course they broke me into pieces saying " new christians like you are keen to read and share god's words but you will never be like that in a few years time"
now.....why are some people speaking like that?

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I miss home. I really do. but of course i'm really enjoying myself here. so much better than last semester.
there's an event coming up from Planet Shakers. 'THE WHITE NIGHT' , i'll be helping out with the food and deco.

believe me, I'm really trying hard to get my ass sitting in my room with my books. no more hangouts till exam finishes.

5 more weeks!  

You Are a Plain Ole Cup of Joe

But don't think plain - instead think, uncomplicated You're a low maintenance kind of girl... who can hang with the guys Down to earth, easy going, and fun! Yup, that's you: the friend everyone invites. And your dependable too. Both for a laugh and a sympathetic ear.

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Our new baby

**Applause**
Jackie Lim is part of our family right now!
Welcome, my cute little Jackie.
oh, btw Jackie is 4mths old now. 

The Little Principle

"The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment"
- Joshua Harris, I Kissed Dating Goodbye

a week off from uni feels more like a day off to me. assignments and tests lining up and exams in 6 weeks time! Really delighted because I've got 92% for my econs assign and got back the most tedious management assign too, not good enough (only 60%) but i'm confident that my finance and law test will do well! it's really been long to feel the satisfaction after putting in all effort and score for what I truly deserves. ---> some should know what happened to my studies last sem(horrible).
i can't seem to give myself a break. I love challenging myself to do even better than any of my 1st assignments. No more excuses to slack. and study abroad isn't about my survival in aussie land but to complete this degree and graduate with glory.

If over and over God deigns to work,
Why should we faint, one duty shirk?
So over and over our tasks we do,
Sure of reward, if our work be true. - Anon.



i can't wait to go Queensland.

I love CURLS~ 

So it's Easter !!! this day used to be just another holiday for me, bunny chocolates and eggs. I don't know if i'm right, but Easter in singapore is quieter when it compares with Easter in Australia. I passed by a church at the city on Good Friday, wasn't much expected to do anything but I stood right outside the church with 1000 people and sing praise to Jesus.

it's a lot more "happening" here. trust me!

and hey, enjoy your easter wherever you are!


bunnies bunnies! happy easter!


*** giving easter eggs or bunnies makes me feel sooooo santa claus-ian. 

Read the following:

This is this cat
This is is cat
This is how cat
This is to cat
This is keep cat
This is a cat
This is fool cat
This is busy cat
This is for cat
This is forty cat
This is seconds cat

Now please read the third word in each line.

and seriously, are u that bored?


have an early night 

哭喊着。

人生有不少的欢乐和悲伤 。今天在Planet Shakers Church Service, 大家都在哭喊着，希望自己的奇迹会实现。 ** 但愿如此。

P.S: Samson，好好保重

Marriage.....
(Just for laughs) 

decaf?

they said a decaf is a better option to go for. I really have to work this out; clarins asked me to cut down my caffeine intake.

Becos, i have it more than twice a day. and it's obviously gonna ruin my complexion soon or later(maybe it has already been ruined) alright, at least the fact that I'm not a smoker, helps a little. But after burning my pocket at Myers, i think it's time to take some serious action.


and now, i'm hungry.


stacey said she will call. time now is 1.46am (alright, commonwealthgames delayed day-light savings) will she? should I be expecting? LOL
and ohhhhhhhhh! I'm SO grateful that management and finance are my majors! though doing business report can be a little boring but, isn't it challenging to dig some fun out of it? crap.

P.S: hey, is really worth buying Hillsong United: United We Stand!

cheers
good night.

Surprises

there have been too many recently.

apparently things at home aren't that smooth. Pastor xiaolin prayed for me over the phone. I just have to hand it over to God.

report writing this whole week, and our plans to Sunny Ridge and Nedlands this easter break. or maybe a 3 day trip to sydney and eat as many gourmet fresh oysters as possible? LOL. who knows?

salmon with veggies tonight. and tml lunch with Shelvin before my first clarins' facial appointment, hoping to see some familiar faces at the city!

Trust me, I really wanna go taiwan badly.
take care dude! 

Samson left Melbourne

And of course, he left for good. best wishes to you my brother.Gonna miss you.
Really thankful for everything..

I held back my tears, to send you off.
in fact, Jamie and Shelvin did the same thing.

hope to see you soon.

Lovely.

"You dance over me
While I am unaware
You sing all around
But I never hear a sound."

"Lord I'm amazed by you
How you loved me."

Joel, just wanna thank you. 

Thursday is approaching...

 

" Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you " - Matthew 7:1-2

Pray-ed

Today at church service, I prayed for you.
Prayed that one day you will have a deeper understanding why that happened.
It's offensive to actually use the word 'bomb'. because Jesus has been with me(always will be), and that he watches me from the 1st day i've accepted him.

you can blame me. you can argue and disagree with everything that has happened. but don't say "I'm sorry, i can't change for you"

Who asked you to change for me?
if you've not forgotten, you told me that you wanna change to a better person, because of me.
no one asked you. or even forced you.

you can't say that. seriously.
it is stupid to actually type that out because everyone should change for themselves instead.

I took those ugly emotions out from me.
with the help of Jesus, I can strongly feel my love for everyone around me. and that's including you, my friend.


have a great week ahead.

WOW!

a million thanks.

improvements!!! I CAN SEE!!!

WAhhahaa!

I miss those times. The silly you. and of course your time, care and concern. I'm sorry to bother you the same issue over and over again...but i know u still care for me! wahaha..

see you soon, my friend!