Graduation Jitters from Boundless

You're getting impatient with His seeming silence. Why doesn't He direct you?

Most students have an unrealistic view of God's direction. They're waiting for a voice in the ear, a tap on the shoulder, a dream, a sign, a special feeling. There is a reason these means of divine communication are called "extraordinary." God saves them for times when He needs to bonk someone on the head. Even then they must be tested to make sure that they really come from God; most such experiences don't. As Paul wrote to the Thessalonians, "Test everything" (1 Thessalonians 5:21).

What then is God's ordinary means of communicating His will? Scripture calls it Wisdom. "Wisdom is the principal thing," says the book of Proverbs; "therefore get Wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding" (4:7, KJV).

How then do we get Wisdom? If we live in obedience to Him, following His ways and doing all the things we already know He wants us to do — like trusting Him, talking with Him, studying His word, following His laws, thinking about His ways, worshipping with His people and showing compassion to those whom He puts on our path — He gradually illuminates our thinking, sharpens our discernment, and deepens our understanding. That is getting Wisdom.

In short, God usually works through rather than aside from our deliberations, in rather than apart from our minds. It's not for nothing that He commands us to love Him all our heart, soul, and strength and all our minds. Christ "takes every thought captive." This is part of the meaning of conversion.

And as you have already discovered, it also tests our patience and our faith. God likes that too. The test isn't to tell Him about us but to tell us about ourselves; He already knows.

So don't wait for the "bonk." He is guiding you already. Not with fireworks, not with special feelings, not with angelic visitations, but by walking alongside you, His hand on your shoulder, through the quiet corridors of your thoughts.

Through deserts waste and wild,
the cords of grace have brought me,
and though I wandered as a cloud,
the nets of love have caught me.

When Your way is in the sea,
and strange to mortal sense,
I'll praise you in the mystery,
and trust Your providence.
(old hymns adapted)

I should have done this to Maxcy!!!!

Okay i know.. this is becoming like a video blog already but you have to watch this!!!

活出真正的自己，擁有真正生命價值

Sammi說：「大家都習慣迎合世界的價值觀去處事，但卻欠缺活出真正自己的勇氣，正如過往的我，只活在充滿價值觀的生命中，當我以為擁有一 切時，其實心中一無所有，我曾嘗試用很多成就去填滿心中空虛，原來情更恐怖，我內心更一無所有，只會永無止境的在名利場中追逐，根本無法認清自己的生命 還有什麼。」

Colbie Caillat - Bubbly

To Adrian: I will always remember your bubbly face and your tender love because they always make me smile from the inside out. I love you baby. =)

V1: I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place

C: It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V2: The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under the covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that i adore

C: It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

B: What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmmmmmmm

C: It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go

V3: I've been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth

C: It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time
Holdin me tight

Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go...

Imagine Me by Kirk Franklin

Imagine me
loving wat I see when the mirror looks at me cuz I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And i'm finally happy cuz
I imagine me

Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me
cuz they never did deserve me
can you imagine me
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord can you imagine me
over what ma mamma said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again

[Chorus:]
Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally finally I can...
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
but finally I can...
Imagine me

Being strong
And not letting people break me down
you won't get that joy this time around can you imagine me
In a world where nobody has to live afraid
Because of your love, fears gone away
Can you imagine me

[Bridge:]
Letting go of my past
And glad to have another chance
And my heart will dance
'Cause I don't have to read that page again

[Chorus x2]

[Vamp:]
Gone, gone, it's gone, all gone

on the island

I think most of you know that I’ve graduated. This is supposed to be a good and I am supposed to be dancing away but…. That wasn’t what I did on the 27^th Dec. Dheenul, Jane, Yaya and myself were at Starbucks, counting down to 3pm. I wept outside Starbucks at approximately 2.55pm. I still remember when my Os were released, I again, was weeping outside the school hall. God reminded me that I just have to calm down and lay my trust on Him. And so, we’ve all graduated for good!

Till this day, I still cannot believe that I have completed my degree. I am back in Singapore, the land of all the 5Ks:
Kiasu (scared of losing)
Kiasee (scared of dying)
Kiabor (scared of wife)
Kiaboh (scared of having nothing)
Kiachenghu (scared of government)

And it is where most of the people are grumpy and discontented with basically, EVERYTHING. I see crowds everywhere in Singapore. And although I grew up here since 5 year old, I am still having difficulty in adapting with the culture here. I miss the smiles and the hospitality that I've got when I was in Melbourne. And maybe I am just distracted by little things and people around me. It’s time to reconsider and prioritize well. And here comes the question: Where does my heart lies?

And from the moment I reached home, my mum was already asking me about my job and my plans. And the thing is, my mum is still quite skeptical about Christianity. Not to mention my dad, he is quite a religious man as well. I would say that I am having a tough time. It is pretty hard to carry across the message about my beliefs and of course, I try to avoid clashing of beliefs and so, I did share about mine and what I have taught at church and from the bible.

The most hilarious thing is, Singapore airlines called me the next day (28th) after I've touched down, telling me that I can fly off on the 10th of Dec as requested. Okay, my name was on the waiting list for 10th Dec and 15th Dec. And it is also because I couldn't get any seats on either one, I had to fly back to Singapore as scheduled, which was on 27th Nov. I was terribly upset because I miss everything and everyone in Melbourne. It has already become my 2nd home. But I reminded myself that this is all planned out and all I ought to do is to enjoy my holidays and spend some quality time with my family. But….. it is soo pressurizing here because all they want, is to see me working. I think I deserve a holiday!

Anyway, my convocation will be on the 23rd of April 2008 and so, I will be going back to Melbourne in March to travel around. I CAN’T WAIT! I will be going over to KL from 13^th Dec till 17^th Dec. And I already have a party invitation! So hopefully I can check out the job market and meet some new people over there.