on the island

I think most of you know that I’ve graduated. This is supposed to be a good and I am supposed to be dancing away but…. That wasn’t what I did on the 27^th Dec. Dheenul, Jane, Yaya and myself were at Starbucks, counting down to 3pm. I wept outside Starbucks at approximately 2.55pm. I still remember when my Os were released, I again, was weeping outside the school hall. God reminded me that I just have to calm down and lay my trust on Him. And so, we’ve all graduated for good!

Till this day, I still cannot believe that I have completed my degree. I am back in Singapore, the land of all the 5Ks:
Kiasu (scared of losing)
Kiasee (scared of dying)
Kiabor (scared of wife)
Kiaboh (scared of having nothing)
Kiachenghu (scared of government)

And it is where most of the people are grumpy and discontented with basically, EVERYTHING. I see crowds everywhere in Singapore. And although I grew up here since 5 year old, I am still having difficulty in adapting with the culture here. I miss the smiles and the hospitality that I've got when I was in Melbourne. And maybe I am just distracted by little things and people around me. It’s time to reconsider and prioritize well. And here comes the question: Where does my heart lies?

And from the moment I reached home, my mum was already asking me about my job and my plans. And the thing is, my mum is still quite skeptical about Christianity. Not to mention my dad, he is quite a religious man as well. I would say that I am having a tough time. It is pretty hard to carry across the message about my beliefs and of course, I try to avoid clashing of beliefs and so, I did share about mine and what I have taught at church and from the bible.

The most hilarious thing is, Singapore airlines called me the next day (28th) after I've touched down, telling me that I can fly off on the 10th of Dec as requested. Okay, my name was on the waiting list for 10th Dec and 15th Dec. And it is also because I couldn't get any seats on either one, I had to fly back to Singapore as scheduled, which was on 27th Nov. I was terribly upset because I miss everything and everyone in Melbourne. It has already become my 2nd home. But I reminded myself that this is all planned out and all I ought to do is to enjoy my holidays and spend some quality time with my family. But….. it is soo pressurizing here because all they want, is to see me working. I think I deserve a holiday!

Anyway, my convocation will be on the 23rd of April 2008 and so, I will be going back to Melbourne in March to travel around. I CAN’T WAIT! I will be going over to KL from 13^th Dec till 17^th Dec. And I already have a party invitation! So hopefully I can check out the job market and meet some new people over there.